Goodbye dear J,
You never asked, but I'll be Okay. This is my last letter To you. You have been my Inspiration to be better. Thank you for everything that You made me feel. Always know my Heart is where you're at. I've moved on. I've found something Else to love, but you'll remain My everything. I lied to myself, Saying I'll only Love you and no one else, you've Made me lonely. But I found someone new, And I can't help comparing Him to you. This might only be a phase But I really like him and I don't understand, he's like shining rays. Is it a bother that I talk to you About him? But I knew you'd found Someone, and me too. This is goodbye Dear J, Wherever you're at, I know You're okay.
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You have always been my favorite song,
Everything- anything you do is never wrong. Thinking of you reminds me of How the the stars and moon lit the sky above. Your words spark up an unknown feeling, It's as if I'm always day dreaming. I remember that one time when we danced It made me feel like we had a chance. And that one time we had a conversation In the midst of our messy classroom. It's something I yearned would remain, Losing it would be like inflicting pain. As if you didn't had it all You even made my heart fall. Although I've met people a new, This is why I could never forget you. I have poured everything-
Admiration, love, and to the very thing That keeps me going Without even you knowing. Not being able to say is bothersome Wish sometimes I'd be numb. You don't know, and it's okay Pretending is such child's play. But I always thought it's all right, Knowing you is still such a delight It's not a need for you to like me But still, I wish we could be. She’s not the best
Not fully at rest. Drowning in seas bluer, Shades owned by her. Wishing someone would find, Pieces of her heart been grind. To her, love is a mystery And so was she. Yet, she still yearns for it. Thinking that love would fit Perfectly in her bones, Washing away her groans. She never felt loved once, Away from it she always runs. To her, love is an unknown Leaving her with a cry- a moan. But who could ever love such A girl deprived of touch? But who could make her feel The kind of love she desired- So real? I just died last night
Now I’m a living corpse. Too dark to find the light, Fearing myself become worse. Was half asleep, Heard them talking last night. And I began to weep ‘Cause I knew they’re right. So many things I wish to say,
So many things I wish to undo. Wish that there’s some way I could make it through. Please help me I’m drowning in an endless sea. Can’t unwind- No peace of mind. Can’t sleep, can’t rest. Don’t know how to find my best. Should I just let go? Leave myself and everything behind. Who should I hold on to? I’m lost and no one will find. If I wish upon this shooting star
Would it heal my scars? Too much pain for me to bear Living life a constant despair. No one else could comprehend The happiness I always pretend. Nowhere to go, nowhere to run All my feelings come undone. It was better if I'd died
Or if I'd not been born at all, There wouldn't be a reason to have cried And the emptiness only so small- Probably none at all. I didn't know why-
My heart began to pound fast As I rolled his name on My tongue. I didn't know why- My palms began to sweat As I lost oxygen on My lung. As I flipped through the Pages, my heart swelled. Broke several times, the Product of emotion. This effect he has on me, I never knew existed. His Name- a very large expanse of sea- Ocean. When this is over
There's no more need to take cover I'd be free from this cruelty, Start shining like jewelry. But all of this- The blissful abyss Would be lost in a memory, All that's left will be the remembered Sensory. But I'd be free And right now, that's all I want to be No stops and contradictions, In my world of fiction. |
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